Soaring Beyond Science : Dr. Husband On Pregnancy
I am 20 weeks pregnant as of yesterday! It has been an interesting journey since finding out about my pregnancy Read here and struggling with all sorts of inadequate feelings ( elaborated here). We recently found out that we will be having a little BOY! whohoo!
A question I have been getting quite consistently these days is how has Dr. J has been responding to my pregnancy? Our close friends and family all know him to be a really chill guy, In general my husband has been pretty chill throughout my pregnancy. I believe it has to do with a mixture of his personality and working in medicine. He hasn’t really scrutinized my food or been overly concerned by certain bodily changes and aches. Of course he would also tell me to ask my OB directly if I had any questions. I find it super cute and endearing though when first time dads watch their pregnant wives like a hawk. Making sure she is eating not only enough but most importantly, appropriate food. Carrying her purse or just anything and everything for her because you are not supposed to lift heavy things while pregnant. Guarding her each and every step in and out of church, making sure she doesn’t slip and fall, and of course the best, being on call for midnight food cravings and gaining weight with her! I know men don’t like to be called cute, but all this is just so endearing!
Some people jokingly assume that because my husband has “seen it all” ( yes he has been in the delivery room quite a few times) he may be, lack of better words, be less phased or moved by this whole pregnancy process. Again, I keep hearing ” He is just so .. chill..” Of course I believe he will respond differently when he sees his own son being born though.
However, there is indeed one consistent response from Dr. J that has stood out to me and still has never cease to surprise me. No matter how much science knowledge he has, and how much he has “seen”, my husband has often just been in complete awe towards this miracle of life our God has created and is creating inside of me. His awe has led him to moments of silent worship and praise for our Lord in heaven. There are moments when he will look at my growing swollen belly, gently poke it a few times, and respond in praise for our creator. My husband knows the science behind baby making, we all took biology in high school, he is aware of the week to week developments in the womb, he has looked at plenty of ultrasounds and listened to fetal heartbeats, but science and medical knowledge can only take a person so far in his or her understanding of life. How can a sperm and an egg , both soulless objects at one point come together and form a being with a soul, with life? At the end of the day, through God’s grace, I believe Dr. J’s faith in our creator has enabled him to soar into the exact place our God wanted him to be in. To see life as a miracle, believe the unexplainable ,and respond in worship.
In these precious moments, I see glimpses of childlike faith in my husband’s eyes. Just in complete awe of God. Laying aside, not discarding, but simply laying aside his medical knowledge and experiences for a few minutes to acknowledge this miracle of life in our midsts, giving God the glory and honor He deserves.
To all Christian medical professionals out there, we appreciate you, we acknowledge the uphill battle you may experience day in and day out at work, but most importantly, we need you. We are praying for you, and we pray for more of you to help us see life beyond mere science.
Psalm 139: 13-16
For you formed my inward parts;
you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.
14 I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Wonderful are your works;
my soul knows it very well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you,
when I was being made in secret,
intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
16 Your eyes saw my unformed substance;
in your book were written, every one of them,
the days that were formed for me,
when as yet there was none of them.
With Much Love, and Strong Cravings for Sushi,
I know from my previous post I mentioned that I would be back to regularly blogging. However, since getting pregnant, I’ve been experiencing an intense wave of writer’s block. Lack of better words, I’m just not sure what to write about anymore. Is mommy brain kicking in already? ( Is this even real? haha..)
After more than enough introspective moments, I think my writer’s block has to do with not just the life transition I am going through, but also with the new direction God may be wanting to steer this blog towards. Still need to pray about this more, so I won’t be elaborating too much in this post. I just know this blog will always have a unique space for women married to med. professionals and busy husbands, but I believe God would like me expand this space for women, wives and potentially young moms? hmm not sure what it will look like yet. :p